Journals

After the Breakup of my family, the cancelation of my job, and the Heart Attack of my mother I've come to a new unbridled understandings of Spiritual Warfare. Let me make clear of events. My mother had a life changing event that effected me as a son deeply to which i turned to Baronlosk the Protector of Women and Children. Today my mother is 98 to 99% healed. Found out my now Ex had cheated on me for the 3rd and final time. She and our Son now live in their own apartment 5 minutes away. That same morning she informed me of her transgression, I lost my job. to make things worse I lost my SSDi temporarily which i now got back. So to say the last four months has been a black hole effect that left me in a dark and vile state of mind, and started drinking. It was once quoted that only through the darkness can one find the light. Truth! I had no idea how far I was Run down into the ground until that enlightening moment came upon me like a flash flood of gnosis. First step was dealing with SSI which was the first victory to come. Gathered the paperwork and turned it in. Then Moved the ex and our son fully into the new place, informed the cops of the separation and the school. Then took two weeks to myself. Couldn't believe how much anger and hatred was inside. I turned to My Patroness, and to the Lady Senerron and her Tower for aide. Found myself focusing upon my studies, Meditations, Practices of Dark and Vile Magic. Before long was walking into the enemies camps completely Invited in. My old church was one that welcomed me back with open arms. This church was why i entered the clergy back in 2009 as an apprentice. Fitting this was a locale of focused rage. As i sat in the back pew i started praying placing visual curse seals upon the walls. before long the priest and his brother began sensing the changes occurring in their temple. the whole congregation joined in within a rallying prayer fest. I found myself Praying to the Blighted and to Maergzjirah with a ferocity never before seen from myself. I don't know where that came from within me, but i had become such a threat they took up arms ( Armor of God) as their book says. That night i realized something! I realized that i was ready for the next level of warfare. started delving into psionics and Spiritual Warfare research and study. I took the oath in a live video for my elders to view and take note, to keep record of serious oath and pact i was making as or i should say to the title of Vanguard. I remembered that a man now a bishop in Columbus Ohio once said he was the guardian of the gate! he stood at the gate of the pullpit against those not worthy to enter. I remembered my own research into the vanguard from historical accounts. This Mixed in with Psionics, Spiritual Warfare, and Vile Magick- It was a massive push I needed to experience. Believe i also told my Imperators that either way i wasn't gonna be redeemed! No, I was gonna commit myself further into the Practices and Faith. In fact even petitioned the Blighted for aide in the arena of how to. was willing to pay in blood if need be. did not care how as long as it was done. I look back today with clear eyes, and mind. I know what my path cost me, and i am ok with it. My Faith in the Blighted and in the Brotherhood of the Cabal will always come first. if anyone wants to be in my life then they need to rise up to the level and test always what they preach. I am a Dark Archbishop in the service of Lady Zashiara the Witch of the Vile Depths. I rid myself of my Instagram account, My Timbr Account, and now my Facebook Account. slowly moving into the darkness. Study, Practice, and Applying the craft of Lichdom is more important to me then the worldly distractions.

My Eulogy reads as follows-

"Michael Hyson lived without fear, never doubting, and walked in faith. He never allowed others to dictate his life, nor did he flee from combat when it was necessary. He was a very Devout Servant of who he worshiped and dedicated completely to his practices. He honored his responsibilities as a father, and a devout without question or hesitation. He protected his clan of kish and kin. he will be missed"

The Tower of the Abyss has aided in my understanding of emotions and how to deal with them. Each Patron and Patron from the Demon Empress herself Lady Senerron, down to the Demon Harbor, The Witches of the Depths, and yes even the Hag of the Pit has shown me the light in the Emotional department. Moreso, Both The Tower of the Abyss and that of Keraktes has lead me into an area i am enjoying fully. My personal journey is one of Hardships, Trials, and Tribulations that make me better. More Focused and Dedicated even. When i was child i swore i would never be like my father and abandon my kid/s. I am Proud to say i am better then him because my son is in my life even if his mother is not. Like me my son is learning faster then most children his age. I think the most scariest thing is that he is taking after me with his sense of humor and wants to be like his daddy. he is handling it better then i did for sure. I look back at my life and regret not many things. few to say the least. the best thing i ever did was join the Cabal. I've grown so much here then anywhere else in over thirty years. I've Broken habits, shunned the unworthy, and evolved into a man that i can respect. Makes me wonder where I'll be in another 6 years. For the first time in my life I know who and what I am about, and where I want to Be. The Old Saying- "the fear of will be is worse then never experiencing it, For once its experienced there is nothing to fear at all". Well the fear i had was never seeing my son again if she and i broke up. she had told me verbally that i will always be his father and be in his life, that will never change. her mother on the other hand is the issue. she wants me gone and out of the lives of my son and his mother. but legal means are being implemented to prevent that. My Housing has already received the notary of the intent between me and my ex to share 50/50 responsibility of our son. next is a notary based off of child support and shared custody of him. this will prevent her mother from interfering further. If you would have said i would be as i am today a decade ago i would have said your insane. But here is truth. I am and always will grow and mature in the Faith. I am a humble devout of Maergzjirah. My faith has increased and so too has my commitment and dedication to this current. Blessed be to the Blighted Lords and Ladies of Maergzjirah. Now its a matter of finding he right material here in Maine to use to for the creation of a cloak. so far satin and silk have failed, and so too has a woolen blanket type material. found a new fabric of Cotton based material that is think, heavy base to it that is promising. and one more thing on the 15th of November 2022 i filled out an application for a job with a different owner and was hired on the spot three hours later. so i start Monday morning at Dunkin in Brewer Maine. Never thought I'd return to this job again, but here I am. Blighted are wise. All things are back on track at least most of the way and more on top of that. nothing wrong with a little extra.